Rememberance--Krystal

One thing I say through my 17 years of life, and only remembering everything from when I was 4 years old was that saying goodbye is the hardest thing you ever have do in life. I’m pretty sure a lot of people had said goodbye to something that they love and I can relate because I was on the same boat on Thursday, October 19, 2017. This date marked my last time playing volleyball with the girls I’ve been playing with since the beginning and just playing in general. 

When I first started playing volleyball I fell in love with the excitement of doing something I didn’t know I could do and just putting in the hard work. I always saw myself playing volleyball throughout my whole volleyball career and working to get full ride scholarships to the colleges of my choice. Remembering all these goal of making volleyball my career, I was fresh and new and a 14 year old girl. As time went on so did the passion with all my injuries, fatigueness, and the stress of being a student athlete. The injuries first came in when I was a sophomore around the beginning of second semester, I had gotten a concussion and as time went on I actually believed that I became a accident prone to this sport with me always getting hit in the head which caused some bad headaches pretty easily, to having tendinitis in my foot, to the alignment of my back not being in line with my spine, to having a swollen calf. From having injuries to having coaches on you pushing you past your limit was also a combination of my lost of passion towards this sport. Don’t get me wrong I still love this sport, I just lost my passion to keep playing, in the sense of practicing and having 5 to 7 hours games, trying to do all my homework, and trying to get enough sleep, everything had because pretty overwhelming and stressed and just had push me to my limit. 

I was on varsity this year and on October 19, 2017 was our last game for the seasons, which means it was our senior night. We had a ceremony where we recognized our seniors with signed volleyballs, flowers, balloons, and a lot of pictures and videos showing off our seniors that very night, and basically the last game of the season was dedicated all the seniors. Throughout the whole game we had all our seniors on the floor playing against St. Lucy’s volleyball team and this was a pretty good game. All our girls came out with a bang, and played for each other and gave it their heart on the court, but sadly we did loose, but it was a good lost and it was a great way to end our season. I believed that we all had fun and played with everything we got, and played as if it was our last game, which it was for many girls. When the game was over everyone was hit with reality, which was this was the last time the varsity that they been playing with since their beginning is now leaving and knowing that this is the last time were playing with them hurts especially for me because I love my underclassmen. Knowing I finish my season strong with these girls I couldn’t ask for anything better. There was just so much emotions between the girls from sadness to happiness because of reminiscing about our memory and just knowing it's all over hurts. I love those girls so much and I couldn’t ask for anything better I’m just glad I was blessed with this bunch of girls. 

This event was so significant because it makes a milestone of leaving and growing. This event just reminded me how hard it was to let something that you love go, and how it is a process of life. This reminded me of everything I’ve been through with all the sweat and tears I had put into everything that had gotten me where I am today. Saying goodbye is hard and heartbreaking because of everything builds up and said through a two syllable word, that only takes 0.1 second to say. The hardest goodbyes are the one that you had put your heart into and the one that reminds you about the hardships and the best of time through the whole journey between everyone you love. This experience had just showed me to appreciate the time with everything I receive and everything that is offered.