Limbo--Hannah

It begins with a pounding. I bring my hands to my hair and pull at the roots. It’s happening again.
Why? Why now? Why me? Why not? The radio goes static beside me and my eyes burn, but I
barely notice. I’m too focused on the beating in my skull. Not again. Never again . A lways. I open
my eyes only to feel the stinging in my hands, similar to my eyes, only with the addition of
crimson drops. This is it… the end. I find my way down the stairs. I take a turn to the kitchen
spotting the front door at the end of the hall. “Hey Ridiculous, you come down for a late night
snack too.” I turn my head in the direction of the sound. “Oh Rid, are you feeling alright?”
Insanity looks me in the eyes. “Oh no..” San moves closer as I flinch away, “No, no stay there. I
just want you to sit down.” I stare down at the wood beneath my feet. “I can’t it's here,” I clutch
my fists tighter. “What's here?” Insanity smiles. “The Inevitable. I feel it.”I’m too late.” San leads
me to the table and I collapse into the wooden chair. It’s too late. “I'm too late.” You’re always
too late. “Rid, give me your hand.” Insanity takes my hand. Slowly my fingers are unfurled one
by one. Late? Late. I can’t be late! Sure. you tel l yourself that. “So,” San pulls out what looks like
a cloud from the corner of my eye, but I know is a cotton ball, out of the kit. “The Inevitable is
back huh?” I grunt in response and let out a hiss as the alcohol touches my raw skin. It's
coming. Its com ing. It's coming! “Do you know why?” Insanity leans in and finishes wrapping my
hand s. Do I? Do you? “How should I?” I stand up slowly, my voice raising along with my body.
“It’s you. You should know!” My head snaps to the mirror in the dimly lit hall and I move towards
it. “It’s you! You’ve caused this all of it!” I’m inches away, staring at the sickly thing in front of me.
“It’s you!” I pull back my fist and I’m inches away from shattering it “Let me go!” It smirks at me.
Pale skin, dark eye s. It mocks me. I do. “Let me go.” I slump back into the chair that San lead
me to. “I can’t” Insanity mocks. I lock onto the dark eyes of Insanity. I’m lost. Of course you are.
You will never be found.
Lightning cracks and the thunder soon follows. The pale white room is illuminated for a split
second, but is soon once again enveloped in darkness. I’ve grown used to it. I look at the small
plastic cup of water. I shakily take it in my hands and drink it, trying not to make a mess. I clear
my throat and glance at the five pills on the s mall table. Y ou won’t win. I can hear it smile. I
place them one by one under the mattress with the others. Flight is no longer an option. I hear
delirious laughter from behind my ears. Good morning sunshine.