Austin

I feel disoriented, I just got hit with like four million emotions I haven't felt in a long time. I keep thinking I have everything together right now graduating, I felt safe and secure with my grades, work, friends, family, and love but, I don't see it anymore. I think I got lost on this "path" to my future and now I’m lost again. I know there's going to be a ton of blog submissions now about school ending and their experience and mine is kind of about it I guess. I want mine to warn freshman and relate to seniors. I remember having all these expectations for my high school life during Freshman year and now none of them have occurred, if I could give any freshman advice it'd be to be hopefully and enjoy these next couple years, do whatever floats your goat. In all honesty I lost so many people along the way in high school but I guess that's part of the process to find out who’s really there for you or even if you're the one who needs to change. I feel like we all come into high school with some set of goals in one primary category whether it’s get good grades for college, or make new friends, or find a true love , or even none of the above some people just go with the flow, I came into high school looking for love and friends I remember. I know it sounds foolish now and all the seniors are probably thinking " oh what an idiot, how cheesy and cliché" and I know I do sound like an idiot and I still am an idiot because I still have those hopes and aspirations today, I really do love almost everyone around me in high school and who I’ve met, being in high school has brought me so much pain and stress but it also has given me confidence and happiness because I learned from those around me who I am and who I want to be. I know for a fact I’ve been stuck on this idea of love in high school, I know for a fact that I’ve found it and know it’s real but, what I also know is that in high school we are all vulnerable, it’s like we haven't learned how to handle stress and emotions well and it’s just an observation I’ve seen. I mean for our generation we feel pretty strong because we grow up with so much emphasis on the future but also just carrying the weight of generations behind us.

Now here is my personal story of high school, even though  this whole thing is personal, I probably sound like an idiot but WHO CARES THOUGH, I’ve had a pretty damn good high school memories. I started out miserable in freshman year, I got bullied and didn't know how to make friends, and now look at me, (for those who know me I’m loud and pretty social), people have accepted me for who I am and I cannot thank god enough for that. I think the one thing I never improved on was my grades or study habits though! And all you seniors know you can relate! My friends, I’ve ups and downs with a lot of them but I care deeply about them, they've helped me develop my character and trust with people and how to interact and be who I really am. Lastly I’m going to be done this right now I found love in high school you never really know though because love in high school is damn complicated, I love this beautiful girl since I met her before high school, and I just find it amazing how in high school we kind of learn along the way how to handle it and what real feelings are and even then we could be wrong, I just have always looked at that and have no idea why. I can't thank you guys enough for everyone being so accepting of me and laughing with me and helping me. Anyway I love you all and wish you the best in the future and I am so grateful to be a part of the greatest class in my opinion and thanks for putting up with my long story and stupid self!

Best of Wishes,
Austin