The most heart-breaking day of my life. It was on the 10th of
March during my freshman year that my heart felt like it had completely died
out. I was sitting in my 3rd period
class when I was informed that my mom had come to pick me up and I knew bad
news was coming. I knew that my grandpa’s cancer was getting worse every day
and that my viejito would soon leave me. I believe there is a totally different
feeling from knowing someone will die and actually going through the experience
of losing a loved one. As I entered the office to get picked up, I saw my mom
crying and I instantly broke into tears. I gave my mom a tight, long hug and we
walked to the car without saying a word. I got in the car and I could see my
whole family sobbing, not believing what happened. We were on our way to my
grandparents’ house and I just could not stop crying. I looked up at the sky
and asked God why this had to happen and why such a thing like death exists. We
arrived and we were all slow getting out of the car and walked inside the
house. I entered the house and saw all my aunts, uncles, and cousins crying out
loud because they had lost one of their best friends. I slowly walked to the
room in which he was in and when I saw him, I couldn’t believe it. The man that
was my best friend. The man that was basically my second dad. The man that
would always take care of me when my parents were busy. The man that would
always take me to AMPM and catechism. The man that would always make me laugh.
The man that would always try to make feel better whether it was because I was
sick or just sad was no longer in my life. He was no longer in my life, my
grandma’s, and my entire family’s life. It was the first time that someone who
I was super close to had gone into the heavens. All the memories I made with my
grandpa made me believe that he would always be with me through everything. I
always saw him as an invincible man who could never get hurt by anyone or
anything. I know everyone goes through this, but it was my first time I lost
someone very close to me and the pain felt throughout is the most horrible
feeling anyone can ever have. It took me weeks to recover but I learned to
accept that death is a part of living and that these things will continue to
happen. My grandpa didn’t deserve everything he had to suffer through but he
accepted his fate. I know my grandpa made his peace with God and I know that he
is not dead to me or anyone in my family because he lives in all our hearts. As
George Eliot said, “Our dead are never dead to us, until we have forgotten
them.”
Okay I'm in tears. This is seriously so touching & so close to home for me right now. I'm sorry for your loss & great job!
ReplyDeleteYou write so beautifully; I had tears in my eyes from the emotion that your words held. I love your quote at the end, it gives reassurance that everything will be okay and it brings your whole piece together. <3
ReplyDeleteWow, such a very touching narrative. Makes me want to cry because, I myself miss both my grandparents that died from cancer...
ReplyDeleteWe just need to remember that the important people in life matters the most and they will always be there no matter what spiritually or physically. Losing someone who are close to does breaks our hearts, but we know they are somewhere safe in the heavens.
First of all I want to say that I am so sorry you lost your grandpa. Almost 2 years ago my grandma passed away and I felt how you did just then. I like how you concluded your story because I believe that acceptance is an important part of healing.
ReplyDeletewow this is soo touching! that is a great quote, it couldnt be more true!
ReplyDeleteThis was so touching! I am sorry for your loss :'( I can relate because there has been plenty of death in my family and I know how hard it is to go through it and to overcome the grief! I think that you wrote this beautifully! Great job!
ReplyDeleteI'm incredibly sorry for your loss. I know it isn't easy. I really wish I had more to say.
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel. I have experienced great loss,but I was too young to remember. But now that I'm older I know time can only tell when I'll lose someone that important to me too. I'm so sorry for your loss. This was beautiful and I'm sure your grandpa is looking down on you and smiling because you have not forgotten him.
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This was beautifully written and very heartfelt. I very much enjoyed reading this.
ReplyDeleteIm not gonna lie, tears were coming down my cheeks as i was reading this..
ReplyDeleteI know that this could be something hard for anyone to share publicly because a death is not easy and it often time feels like people dont really care.. im getting off topic but im sorry for your loss even though sorry doesnt do much to a person, i hope you know that love never disappears and there was obviously love between you and your grandpa, its kind of a blessing and a curse to see them go slowly because you can tell your final goodbyes but seeing it all happen in front of your eyes and not being able to stop it, is something i wouldnt wanna experience. This was a touching story especially to the people who gone through something major like this thank you for sharing it, i hope this made you feel liberated in a way.
Chris your relationship with your grampa is so unique and beautiful and Im glad you were able to so perfectly express it. Its in the simple things like going to AM PM that we truly grow closer to someone. THanks for opening up and letting us all into a deeper part of your story.
ReplyDeleteChris...you are truly a fantastic writer...I read the whole thing and I know how you feel that grandparent and grandchild bond in mi familia is strong and I understand that...man...this was just so ...powerful...great job!
ReplyDeleteDeath is a very hard subject to read about but the way you wrote it was amazing!!
ReplyDeleteThis was BEAUTIFUL! i started to tear up it was so sad:( I'm sorry for your loss, but great job on your submission (:
ReplyDeleteMan, you had to be really strong to share something as personal as this. Thank you for allowing us to take that journey with you as readers, it's a curious idea really. To take others, who don't have as strong a connection to someone who has passed, and allow them a first hand look at your thought process. Thank you for sharing:)
ReplyDeleteSuch a touching story that is told well :) I'm so sorry you had to go through that.
ReplyDeleteThis was hard to read because the topic is such a sad one, but it was written in a beautiful way with a very careful choice of words to be used to describe what had happened.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. This was deep. I'm certain that you're making him proud
ReplyDeleteThis was written in such a real, raw, and beautiful way. Thanks for sharing a moment so personal to you. I really appreciate you being so honest.
ReplyDeleteThis was very touching. I appreciate you sharing this with the class.
ReplyDeleteWow you have a unique Relationship with Your grandfather it's like a love hate relationship I can relate to that because that's how me and my mom are
ReplyDeleteThis is so touching, you had such a wonderful relationship with your grandpa and it isn't always easy telling stories like this so thank you for sharing something very personal that meant a lot to you :)
ReplyDeleteDang it! Now I have to go regain my manliness again. Great work man!
ReplyDeleteI love this so much, because I'm pretty sure everyone can relate. This exact same thing happened with my uncle, and it was terrible experience. Thankyou so much for sharing this.
ReplyDeletesup. this was pretty sad story. but very touching with the relationship with your g-pa
ReplyDeleteThis was really enveloping and that quote at the end just absolutely drove it home.
ReplyDeleteYou have me getting chills and tears rolling down my face:( I am so sorry for your families loss!:( This piece was written in such a beautiful way! I also lost my grandpa recently and i know how you are feeling:( Great work!
ReplyDeleteVery touching this made me get really emotional reading this. I loved how you were so open and it takes a lot to do that.
ReplyDeleteDang, this is a very sad and touching piece. I liked your use of imagery, but I'm sorry for your loss
ReplyDeleteWow, that was really touching. I appreciate you open thoughts on the subject.
ReplyDeleteThe quote at the end was the icing on the cake. You're right, everyone experiences losing a loved one, but each person's experience is never the same as another's. I can relate in every way to your story and I'm sorry that you had to lose someone you loved deeply. Thank you for allowing us to share this with you :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for the lost of your grandma, I could relate to your story. This was a very touching piece you wrote.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for your loss, from you narrative you were close to him. And that made it so touching, all the heaviness you were surrounded following his death.
ReplyDeleteit was sad and touching. it was so long ago it seems like so i hope it doesn't burden you any longer, but don't ever forget who he was to you :)
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