Untitled--Jazlyn

Growing up and always acting like I was always happy in life was such a hard thing feelling for me to grow up with.You always want to look at the bright side of things and you are always told no never give up.When about 8 or 9 years old I knew my life was about to do a 360 on my and change my life upside down.During that age you never image a 8 to 9 year old to deal with that but,I did learn a lot from it.When going to school one day my mom told me to never forget about her and that she will always love me no matter what.I didn't really think about it that day until about 5 days go by and my mom hasn't came home or anything. I started to asked my grandma when my mom was going to come home and no one would give me answers.I would cry and say how much I miss my mom.A few weeks go by and my dad and mam liz sit me down at the table.I was like oh no did I did something wrong?They told me no but we do have some news for you.They didn't sugar coat anything and just told me straight up how it was.My dad says”Jazzy always remember that none of this is your fault and that you didn't do anything wrong.Your mom chosen the life of drugs and she doesn't want to change that.Her kids aren't that important I am sorry to tell you that you won't see her again”.When my dad told me that my heart broke into pieces because all I could think about was I just want my mom.Later down the road around 13 My mamaliz and dad got a divorce which was another heart break in my life because my dad started to do drugs also.I would stay up late and blame myself for my parents foolish actions.I started high school and coming into high school you never know what to expect because everyone wants to fix in.I knew coming into high school there was going to be all these drugs and I didnt want to be apart of that life that my parents took.Everyone in my family would always tell me that I just look like my mom and have all her features but, Yeah I may look like her but me and my mom are two different people.I didn't want to be like my parents said to say but both my parents just care about one thing only and that is drugs.I see a lot of people in the same boat as me.It sad to say that some people that call themselves parents don't deserve to be parents.God put us here for a reason to see what we can handle in this world.I never knew when being so little I would have to deal with something so hard.People like my father would tell me i am surprised that you weren't a mess up like me and your mother.Those words kind of hurt me but i used that as motivation to move forward and make sure to not let my parents action in life affect me because I have more good things coming my way.It is easy to just do drugs and go to parties and just do that to take the pain away but in reality does that help you in the long run.That just gets you addicted to things like that.Being able to stay strong for myself and my brothers and sisters is a great feeling.I am glad that I was put up for this challenge.It might have knocked me down here and there but I came back on top and made sure that I am doing everything for my siblings and I wouldn't change that for anything.Being the oldest out of 5 has a lot on your shoulders but I want to show them that drugs isn't all to life.Yes that's what we have seen but we have more to live for and we will because I will make sure to not only push myself but I am also going to push them to their dreams and make sure that they make it there.I would like to thank my parents for doing what they do and showing me I can be independent and I can live my life

good and not have to do drugs and what they do.Thank you for showing me we have more than life than that I appreciate it