The Question--Jeshua

Here I am fighting with myself to ask before my time runs out. The spider filled
walls are closing in. I'm aching in dispair, as nothing seems to escape my mouth. My lips
are stitched together by the threads of webs that the spiders left. Everything is turning
into darkness as the light fades away. I just want to ask her a simple question, but my
mind won't let me. I know the words that need to come out, but they burn at the tip of my
tongue. Is this hell? What did I do to deserve this?! Why am I here?! Oh, I remember...
Two months ago, after a long and wet morning, the rain suddenly stopped, and a
luminescent light shined upon the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. She wasn't just an
ordinary girl, she had dark brown hair that sat just under her shoulders, pale round
smooth and squishy cheeks that fitted her face perfectly, eyes of jewels with a unique
birth mark placed on the right eye, pink lustrous lips that made any prince want a taste,
and an amazing smile that could light up anyone's world, specifically my world. Surely
enough this wasn't the first time I saw her, I saw her everyday but Sunday's. Her name
was Acuna, and she was my best friend. I never got to tell her how I felt about her
because she was perfect, and I was just me, nothing special about that, but time was
getting closer and closer to our separation. She was getting ready to start a new life,
without me of course, but our journey didn't end there. On April 10, 2014 I accompanied
her to this fancy dance on the Queen Mary, and boy was it an adventure. She got to be my
Princess Jasmine, and I her Prince Aladdan for one whole night! It was dream come true,
I felt like a teenage girl drooling over the most popular senior in school. We danced all
night till the music stopped, we had layers over layers of dirty sweat, and still that wasn't
enough to stop what we felt that night. All we needed that night was to hold hands as we
rode a magic rug over the skies, only to admire the beauty of the night, I'm talking about
her of course. Although things didn't turn out that way, we did end up holding hands on
the way back like two little innocent kids holding hands on the way to school. This was
only the beginning, of our near future...
Guys aren't normally the ones to feel emotional, but this girl just
put a spell on me and here I am fangirling about her. I fell in love with her that night, and
now I love her every single day more and more as time passes by. I mean how is that
even possible?! This was more than just love, this was sorcery! I was crazy over her, she
made every second feel like eternity, and I wanted more than just eternity, I wanted
forever. That was when I knew I had to confront her. A week after the dance, I told her
the way I felt, plain and simple. Of course she was surprised, but she looked at me like I
was on drugs or something, in my head I called her a witch for enchanting me, but what
came out was quite the opposite. Turns out I uncontrollably confessed my love for her,
and she was upset because I was emotionally blind to see that she has always loved me.
That was when I made the most horrific task of promising to ask permission from
Acuna's parents to date her. From that moment and on, I truly knew that I was under the
Love Spell of Samantha Ruth Acuna...
After scheduling a date to go to her house, I approached the tall, dark, and foggy
house, with caution. Her parents happilly took me in, but I sensed the tension, they knew.
I thought that it would be an easy task to get to the point, but they tortured me! They took
me to Joe's Crab Shack! Who would do that to someone?! Food was mouth watering, and
once again I made a fool out of myself by spilling food on myself like a child would but
they laughed, which was a somewhat good sign. After getting back to the house my
stomach started to turn, I didn't know if it was the fish hamburger that I ate, or my anxiety
and nervousness. The clock was ticking and their eyes were growing tired, they were
waiting. Samantha's Dad was starting to yawn, and she was starting to growing hopeless.
Everyone was growing hopeless! Even me! I had no hope, my palms were getting sweaty,
my legs were shaking, my heart was pumping at an extreme rate, and I couldn't say the
words. Then I took one last look at Samantha, and I saw the look on her face, the look
that tells someone that they have given up. That was when I found the courage to sit up
and let the words come spilling out my mouth.
Before I let the words off the tip of my tongue I knew that I was doing it for her,
not because I was enchanted by her spell, but because I loved her. I asked them with a
careful and nervous voice, if I could date their daughter. One might think I'm in the safe
zone, but that wasn't the case. Her father, with a deep, hispanic, and serious voice asked,
“What do you mean by date?” I died inside.
I answered, “Like holding hands, going out together, and being able to call her my
girlfriend” with hesitation because I did not want to say I wanted to kiss her too, no one
wants to hear that. After a few other questions he gave me permission to date his
daughter, only after we were done with school of course. Lucky for us we only had one
more month left, and ever since that month ended she has taught me to fight for what I
want no matter what the cost was, even if I had to fight myself to accomplish my goal.
She was my goal, and that's why I haven't lost sight of what I love.