The Fear Of Life--Sarah

 

Dear whoever,

If I die tomorrow tell my parents I love them. Tell them I’m sorry I didn’t clean

the bathroom or my room. Tell them I wish I had more time with them and that

they were amazing parents. If I die tomorrow tell my brother I miss him. Tell my him

I had hoped to see you sooner and that I’m proud of all your accomplishments in

college. Tell my sister how much I loved how our relationship grew. How we become

closer as sisters and as best friends. If I die tomorrow thank my friends. Tell them

how much I love and thankful for them. Tell them how I’m sorry for never being as

good of a friend as they were to me. How I never checked up on them or tell them

how much I appreciate them. Tell the guy from my past that I never stopped liking

him, never stopped thinking about him. Tell him how I’m sorry for hiding my

feelings when I was too scared to be vulnerable around him. If I die tomorrow tell

all my teachers and coaches thank you, tell them how I have learned so much

from them and would miss them.

Sincerely,

Anonymous

Fear: “an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is

dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.” The consuming fear of time, the fear

of death, and the fear of what I haven’t done.

Our lives are divided in differnt sets of stages stages. From birth to

childhood, to adolescence, adulthood, and old age. Each age holds their

momentous occasions, for example taking our first steps to graduating college.

Its a continuous cycle that never seems to stop and we never expect it to. Their is

always a next age, a next step towards are future that we all plan to achieve. Every

second we grow older without even relaizing it. I remeber as child I was a fraid of

thr birds at costco’s food court. There was a time where we could no longer eat

outside because I would freak out everytime they got close to us. I rember the fear

of bugs that used to make my younger self feel uneasy and would make me plead

to my sister if I could sleep with her that night. I never want to go underground or

in parking garages because the fear of it collapsing. I never want to live by the

ocean for the fear of tsumani’s. I’m scared of growing old and seeing time pass by.

To be too scared to tell the person that I love my true feels for the fear of

embarsemnt if they don’t love me back. Fear holds you back from the best and

most terrifying moments of our lives. It create a block that prevents us from what

scares us the most and what we perceive as dangers to our lives. It can consume

all your days and keep you worried of what might happen instead of what yould

experience instead. We have a limited time on our earth, a time that can be cut

short when we least expect it. Fear cannot be the reason we hold back on things

we want to do or experience because we expect it just to happen or we are too

scared. The truth is, we never know when our time will be up. We might never get

the chance to write our own letter to the one’s we love around us.