Ocean

Quadraplegic...that's me.Trapped...that's how I feel. Alone...thats where I am in my life. Unable ...is my job description. I can't dance, I can't walk, run, jump. I can't sweep anybody off of their feet. I can't get down on one knee to propose to my future wife. I can't feed myself, or even wipe my own butt; I am incapable of taking care of myself ...so why bother living? I can think of one reason. Her.
    I watch her from my chair in the corner of the room. She is so good with kids, thay just flock to her. It pains me to know that I could never give her any. She smiles at me and I feel alive. She hugs me and  the feeling in my body is restored. For a split second I feel able and then I remember I'm not. "Hey!"she says casually. Her brown eyes full of warmth. "Hillo." I reply. Wow I can't even say hello. "I'll see you for Bible study later right", she says. "Of course", I say.We part ways.And that's it, that's all it takes to get me through the next day.
    We used to play together when were kids you know, before the accident. We would play tag, hide-and-go-seek, capture the flag, football, soccer, you name it. Our moms would joke about us getting married and growing old together. I always thought that after we graduated we would do just that. I never thought to cherish the moments we had together, playing tag and all. Now I am twenty five, she is twenty three and I can't even give her a hug or say hello apparently. Try getting a date when you can't do anything. Oh hey Julia would you like to take me on a date where you have to push me around in a wheel chair? feed me? and don't get me started on bathroom trips! God please, I need your strength, help me to find someone who I can love and be loved by.Help me to lean on your understanding.
                                                             Julia
    Unworthy...that's me. Lonely...that's how I feel. He has one of the biggest hearts and the cutest dimples. I sneak a peak at him during the church service, his little niece with her pigtails sitting in his lap. He is so good with kids. It pains me to think that I could never give him any. I found out early on that I couldn't bare children, I just never truly thought about it until now. I can't imagine anybody would want to marry a barren woman, especially a man with as much love to offer as Roman. God please send me someone to love and care for me liked Roman.
                                                             Roman.  
   It's so bright outside today. The summer breeze caresses my skin as I gaze at the most beautiful kindhearted woman in the world. My heart skips a beat as she comes towards me. She waves at me and smiles, I wave back beaming...And then she stops and her jaw drops and she begins to tear up ."What's wrong?", I say concerned yearning to walk over to her and comfort her. I lean forward and that's when I realize what I just did. Julia stutters, "Did you just wave? Your hand and... you leaned forward...but you can't ...but ????"And right then I knew she was the one God sent for me.