Rose--Kayla

Life as we know is full of ups and downs, regardless of the situation. There’s never a time

where we won’t be presented with the hardships this life has given us. This can mentally and

physically harm our well being, where if faced with similar situations, our automatic response is

to flee. Let’s say, losing someone that meant the world to you, more so felt as your home away

from home but when you needed them the most, they stab you in the back as if you meant

nothing to them. Seems quite painful, doesn't it? This is where I begin my story. As the

independent woman I am today, my life hasn’t been the easiest route to get to where I am, as

some may think. I have always had a hard time getting along with my family, which in some

cases felt as if I didn't belong. There were and still are, only a handful of people I can confide in

when dealing with these family problems. I have never been one to fully express my truth when

explaining personal situations, because I feel as if I should never ask for help and deal with these

things on my own. That being said, a few years back in 2018 i had met someone who i never

intended to mean anymore than just an acquaintance. That year was extremely difficult for my

family and I. We could not see eye to eye for the life of it. Coming home felt so exhausting to

where I'd just be in my room until the next day, when I'd have to leave for school. Coming home

should never feel uneasy, but more so your peace after a long day. But that’s just something I

never seemed to fulfill. Let’s call this person, Rose. Rose was the most charismatic, smart,

charming, full of life, understanding, and most patient person i had ever met. At the time, I had

never met someone with such a nurturing feeling, where I could confide in them so quickly.

Meeting Rose was what I looked for when coming home but never seemed to have gotten it. As

cliche as it may sound, there is a saying that says, sometimes your home isn’t always your home,

but maybe your home is within a person. This was my person I felt most vulnerable enough to

talk about my family problems which comes from someone who is afraid to let their guard down,

this was out of my comfort zone. Every Time i had something going on this person was just here,

giving me the right words of advice and made me feel valid but not all things last forever, am I

right? After months of being inseparable, there came a day where things started to change, both

with Rose and my family. Rose had been acting distant, and felt so far but so close to me at the

same time. While, my family situation had gotten to the utmost brim point. I started to feel alone

and afraid as when i did before meeting Rose, but i couldn’t do anything about it because I

wasn’t going to force someone to try and help me, as it is not their obligation. But when

confiding in one person with all this information, to have them just disappear was painful and put

a strain on my heart. Dealing with how both situations got hard at the same time, did not do me

well. I felt lost, a burden, and a disappointment all at once. Come to find out, Rose never had the

intentions of being in my life for the long run, but used me for their enjoyment purposes until

they were happy. Seeing Rose happy, while I was suffering made me feel so much that I was

overwhelmed but I wasn't and still am not the type to ruin a person's happiness for my own. I left

Rose to be, because all I had thought of them was how much peace they’d brought me for a long

but short period of time and this was the most I could do for them. To some that may be wrong to

do, but that’s how much peace a person had brought into my soul that all i wanted was to see

them happy, always. Never will I forget Rose, as they had changed me for the better and taught

me the good and the bad. I learned that it is okay to confide in a person, but be careful with a

person's intentions as it is not always pure but also to never forget how a person had made you

feel if that was good or bad. Know where you stand, your worth, what you deserve as a person,

and to let things go if they no longer serve their purpose. To conclude, “there is no way to hold

onto something that is truly beautiful, not without consequences. There is a reason why Roses

have thorns.”